Confession

On a slightly cold dawn where the darkness had lifted
And the faint lights were turning off one by one
On the familiar road I purposely took the long way to get to,
Watching you fret that it had gotten too late

Not once had I ever thought, even for a moment,
That I would become a me without you
When enough time has passed, I'll probably forget this all
And not be able to remember a thing as if nothing had happened

The road I keep going back to because I still can't forget you
Who would sometimes approach me first and kiss me on the lips
It may be that, if you walk down that path by chance
You might stop for a moment, laugh it off and hurry on

Not once had I ever thought, even for a moment,
That I would become a me without you
When enough time has passed, I'll probably forget this all
And not be able to remember a thing as if nothing had happened

At my shy confession that I was unable to say in a manly way
You quietly came and leaned on me
I miss you so, I want to go back to those days

You, who I believed would be eternal, who was my all,
It's not that easy to erase you
When enough time has passed, will I be able to live
Remembering this as a mere fever, causing a smile to grace my lips
For just one simple moment, like an old diary
***


What a beautifully sad song... I can picture Changmin penning these down... how he was think of his ex gf while writing this.


Ah, happy Vday :)

Been working on a post for a month now... hahahaa, technically just 2 weeks or so... I am lazy like that :( Prelims coming... exams coming. Time is running short. Oh, V'day next week! ahhh, so many movies to watch. And I am starting to get ideas for my 21st... well, just saying. I might just end up spending it like any other year. Hmm, doesn't hurt to fantasize though.

Aish, waking up in 5 hours or so... long day ahead but I gonna make it through! \O/
I want to watch Love and The Vow! Been awhile since I went on movie craze... oh, do you know how it feels like to not know what's the mood to circle on default diary? Then I started thinking about the whole day and there always seems to be some things worth to be happy about while some that I just can't help but feel not as good. heh, but life is good as it is. So long as it isn't bad... I should be contented. hahaha, so hard to satisfy myself.

Ok, pointless rant.
The most important thing is to stay alive. Anything can happen so long as we are alive.
Love everyone, good night.

If you're here for pictures, how about heading over to Facebook instead?
Sorry that I am a wordy person.

another year older and I grew to learn to be grateful ;)

There's this huge power of cards... especially handwritten ones.
It's like when I read them, I can picture the writer writing the card and somehow a barely audible voice of the writer reading the card to me will appear. heh. I just got this fuzzy wuzzy feeling while reading the cards(and notes) that I've got this year. Thanks my lovely girls :)

Of course, most of the time only girls will do such things right? :)
I really love cards and long messages.

Sometimes I ask myself what have I done to deserve this amount of love that I've got from friends. I really ought to cherish everyone and count my blessings. There are people who we don't meet up often but we will always be dear to each other and I am really glad I found them. Though I can't make everyone love me and neither can I please everyone, I am glad that there are people who choose to stay by choice though sometimes I really feel that I am undeserving of their love.

Then again, life often revolves around surprises, routines and disappointments.
I guess sometimes when you're too close to someone, things get taken for granted... somehow... gradually.

I wonder if I am the only person who like to relate things? Like a certain time of a year, I will think of how I spent it the year before and reminisce. It happens every year. Like Christmas, birthday, Valentine's day etc.? heh, I can't be the only weirdo around if this is considered weird.

Hmm, still waiting for the insane moment \O/
I believe love involves two person making the same impulse decision, deciding to take a plunge together. heh, I don't know how long I can hold this belief for but right now, I still hold on to this belief. I know la, I am no longer a teen since I am officially twenty years old now and youth is short for girls but hmm, I guess I still have some time left on my hands? :D /refusetoadmitthatIamold

Ah, less than a year left to save up for 21st party... probably gonna be a normal one... oh wait, $___$
Hmm, I would very much like it to be at some hotel but it will only mean filtering the guest list like major cut-down.

Anyway, it is the time of the year again! Year end = Christmas and all the get-together sessions.
Hmm, counting down to 4th December already. Oh, I need to start studying soon and I've been saying it for a week or so but still... :( Worse still, I gonna start working soon. /sigh. Y do I hv to worry about money? :(

Alright, still~ with a grateful heart, I shall take it as a test (doesn't mean I will not fail it) of my time management and control. Goodbye~ rainy days are meant for snuggling in bed.

那些年

Been replaying this for at least 30 times O_O This is damn nice... and I watched both the trailers!!
heh, begged my girls to watch with me already. I can't wait for it! omg, bittersweet love stories~

拜托不要告诉我，请让我继续喜欢你。

又回到最初的起點
記憶中妳青澀的臉
我們終於來到了這一天
桌墊下的老照片
無數回憶連結
今天男孩要赴女孩最後的約

又回到最初的起點
呆呆地站在鏡子前
笨拙繫上紅色領帶的結
將頭髮梳成大人模樣
穿上一身帥氣西裝
等會兒見妳一定比想像美

好想再回到那些年的時光
回到教室座位前後　故意討妳溫柔的罵
黑板上排列組合　妳捨得解開嗎
誰與誰坐他又愛著她


那些年錯過的大雨
那些年錯過的愛情
好想擁抱妳　擁抱錯過的勇氣
曾經想征服全世界
到最後回首才發現
這世界滴滴點點全部都是妳

那些年錯過的大雨
那些年錯過的愛情
好想告訴妳　告訴妳我沒有忘記
那天晚上滿天星星
平行時空下的約定
再一次相遇我會緊緊抱著妳
緊緊抱著妳

Innocence lost with age.

walk with me.

Leehom is dae to the bak! :D

If time is all I have, I'd waste it all on you.

Too caught up to update this space... and it's showing on my skin T_T (and my body) aish, bloated days really makes me feel sulky. Like whattttttt, wear what also doesn't feels right :(

K... supposed to do some homework but what I've accomplish on a Saturday? err, overdue nap and just the minutes of meeting -_- I seriously need to catch up with schoolwork... feeling lost already :(

To get used to someone's habits.

Hihi, I am all chirpy again despite the continuous rain \^^/
I've come to enjoy the chilly weather ^^ Finally can spam my outrageous collection of outerwears \O/ Don't ask me why but I seems to have a thing for them -.- Yea.. as if I don't live in Singapore, lol. And the trouble is that I can't bring them overseas too... cause the policy of going overseas = bring less, shop more. Luggage maximisation at its best (Y)

And I just had the 4th tuition lesson yesterday! :D 4 more to go before I get paid~ yesah! \O/ Then again, the money is just a subsidy... le sigh. Been overeating and overshopped OTL If this goes on, I can never reincarnate!!! D:

Finally set something to happen in 2012 though I only took the first step, lol. More confirmation to be made ^^ I hope we don't suay suay choose the date that got something... sekali got SRC stuff D: suay max! /choy

Ah, need to save money... so much trips promised. With OG/Jessie, Grace and who knows where else? ^^ I know I've say it for a million times but.... WAE MONEY DON'T DROP FROM THE SKY?! Ah, I feel like applying for the summer exchange programme! Kinda like an experience...? No much chance after Uni eh... where should I apply for? California or Korea or where else? OHMYKOREA. But then Korea can ownself go on tour and it's kinda like a rare opportunity to go to the States etc. Aish, molayo~ I shall check it out at a later time, school haven't even start for me -.- need money \$o$/

Hmm, wae my face so chubzx? >:(
Oh, wearing a beanie right now... and boots... in office. lol, no wonder everyone throwing me looks... but I don't want to get wet what!

kkk, there was a jam along Bt Timah Rd today so I was late for work and I've got no time to get myself breakfast >:( angsty already! Hungry = Angry U_U Anw, why am I here? heh, cause my colleague said "I've got nothing for you to do right now leh... go find something to do." ^^ Thinking of getting mich and jas a lil something for my last day tomorrow. Ah, should I make cheesecake for them?

Le sigh~ heavy sleep debt. I can never make it up.
Ah, suddenly saw the draft post for August, lol. September ending in a week -.-

Hehehe, eggcited for tomorrow's dinner~ my fav thai food and my fav girls ♥ all thanks to darling for the recommendation ^^ now I am addicted. Gosh, just the thought of it makes me salivate... -.- Ah, I wanna try the ayam penyet @jaelurp went! LIKKA NICE!!!

Sat too!!! #2 lesson and then lunch @ where SHINee dined at~~~ lol, don't judge! ah, before attending Joehan's 21st~ Sunday too! OG outing \O/ Monday w my hanz! I love the sound of the upcoming 4 days before sch starts on tues! \^^/ life's good~~~ (though it will be better if I hv more money, lol)

K, ranted enough for today ^^
Shall update w pics soon, lol.
Note to self: pack wardrobe soon -.-

and it's all just a little too late this time round.

Sometimes, I just feel like I am being taken for granted........ and maybe that's what we all do all the time? Take some people for granted at some point of time throughout our life?

When I think someone is really worth it, I really go my all to help the person or do whatever I can that to keep the friendship going but sometimes, just sometimes, maybe it kind of become like an usual thing that I will, somehow, ask you out... like some unspoken rule or something?... so people tend to just wait for my call....? I don't know eh... but I am really bad at planning those group gatherings... which is why I usually ask just one or a couple of friends out at one time :/

Maybe it is the downpour outside right now... maybe it is the lack of sleep for a week... or maybe it is the frustration that come from the condition of my skin... maybe it is the keep your head down & get out thing... or maybe, I just want to kill time at work, hahaha. I might regret typing this chunk of nonsensical stuff... (if you realised my thoughts are always disorganised, lol) but well, yea, right now, at this point of time, I feel like I am taken for granted and it sucks so much >:(

I am trying really hard not to take my parents for granted. We should all do that right? But somehow from day to day... this thought seems to slip our minds. Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

Ah. Million dollar question for the day: why we never like people who adore us but go for people who liked/will never like us?

the pleasure when you feel good about your dressing ♥

So... I mentioned about being inspired that day, lol. I was actually hyped enough to attempt taking pictures of my loots. hehehe.

Tee - $19.90

Leather skirt - $39.90

Hesitated for damn long about the tee... but I thought of school and like aish, I got it. Hmm... should I be regretful? I think I fell for the printed words :( anw, saw a girl wearing the exact same top when I went for SRC AGM last week. SO LUCKY I DIDN'T WEAR IT THAT DAY. omg, when can I wear these loots?!

My fav pair of shoes right now ♥

Kinda like this look... I don't know :/

Lucky me got this dress below in my size. Thanks darling mun ♥ While queuing for the fitting rooms, we saw an aunty holding on to this skater dress and the prints really got us... and my eagle eyes (lol) saw the price tag $24.90. WHATTTTTTTT. SO REASONABLE! But the aunty don't look like she gonna give up the dress anytime :( THEN a salesboy went into the fitting room with a mountain of clothes and and and we saw this dress in the pile!!! \O/

Mun was supposed to get it but because this is my size... ♥ lub chu girl ♥

K, so here it is.

Lips-printed skater dress - $24.90

 

I still haven't wear it out though... so afraid of bumping into someone wearing the same piece :/

Just nice my fan blew in the direction -.-

Upclose picture of the print.

So... how is it? Do you like this look?

Shapeless black bag - $24.90

Is it a valid reason if I say I got it for school? 

Rings - $3.90 for a set of 3
Urgh, got the wrong size for the silver ones though... :( I wear on my thumb meh? :(

Gave up a bunch of gold rings... can't remember it was $3.90 or $5.90. Well, I only have 10 fingers anyway. Hais, really ah... I need to start filtering things well enough.

Keychain for my bag that is supposed to be a couple item for Key and I, LOL. - $7.90

This is totally so Key! FRINGE! \O/

I need to eat grass from now onz. Spare me some food pwetty pwease? :(
On a happier note, 7 more working days ^^v School starting in less than 2 weeks from now... ahhhh, looking at people's photos makes me want to travel. hahaha, I think I borned a traveller yo (lol) $___$ forget it.

Heh, kinda excited for this Saturday's class ^^ annyeonghaseyo, evon-emnida.

Ignorance cannot always be a bliss.

Still in rave about this Holika Holika Face2Change BB roller after using it for over a week \^^/ I love oiseau88 so much, she's so pretty!!!

Hmm, bought it for about $42 the other day if I didn't remember wrongly. I can't stop getting amazed by its coverage! It is so so so different from the previous Snow BB cream that I got from Laneige. Not that it isn't good but this Face2Change BB cream from Holika Holika really work wonders! I am using 02 Natural Beige btw. Oiseau88 so fair, she's using 01 Light Beige. /madenvious

Just a slight push on the button at the side and tada, it is enough to cover your face :D Good make-up makes me happy. Shitz, I've got a list of items to get from Etude house... waiting for a chance to go JB and get them. All oiseau88's fault! Whatever she uses just likka nice T__T (because she chio :( )

Ah, I just saw oiseau88 say that we actually need to clean the roller O_O I don't know how to~~~ hmmmmmmm hope she reply my enquiry soon ^^

I love this - being happy by trivial things like this ^^
The last week of September ought to come now!!! I can't wait to go home and listen to the preview of the Homin's album. Last week of Sep = return of my gods \^^/ Anwz, my faith is so strong nowadays hehehe.

AND I am upset that I didn't manage to get more fancams/fanpics >:( so disappointed w myself! why am I like that? Oooh, almost done with the impromptu inspired post but then I realised I forgot to attach a picture... -.- so I shall post it up tonight after I do.

Random but yesterday night, my bro suddenly tell me I should get married/be getting married when he completes NS... which is like 5 years from now? O_O I told him it's a lil hard, lol. GG, I gonna be a burden to my parents forever and ever ♥ love my squeezy (and messy) room too much already, lol. OH YA, speaking of which... I ought to set aside some time to pack my wardrobe soon -.-

How is it possible to be this tired every single day? >:(

OVERWHELMING EMOTIONS RIGHT NOW. I CAN'T THINK NOR SPEAK MY THOUGHTS OUT PROPERLY. HEHEHE. ALL IN ALL, I AM HAPPY, STARSTRUCK AND OVER THE CLOUDS~

THOUGH THERE IS JUST A REGRET....... BUT STILL, I AM A HAPPY GIRL! EVERYTHING GOES OUR WAY TODAY. IT WAS FUN WITH THE GIRLS <3 HEHEHE, I THINK I JUST FOUND MY WAY BACK INTO SHINEE WORLD. I AM STILL IN CASSIOPEIA THOUGH, HEHEHE.
CAN'T I LIVE IN SHINEE WORLD AND LOOK UP AT THE CONSTELLATION, CASSIOPEIA ON THE SKY? :D

GREEDY GIRL IS GREEDY, LOL.
MAKING NO SENSE, KBYE.

Beauty may be only skin deep but it is what others first look at before getting to know you.

Back then...

my eyes without eyeliner, just concealer -.-

randomly picked a photo from FB, lol my lion hair.

Now.

with eyeliner -.-

This one with eyeshadow some more -.-

I've got worse pictures that can emphasize how tiny my eyes have become but give me some ledway please OTL orz OTL orz thnkyou.

My eyes shrunk over the years ._. Or maybe my eyebags worsen..... or maybe both :( Even eyeliner can't make my eyes look bigger. Must I really rely on contacts then? :( I kinda love how I look at graduation ceremony... good hair, good skin, good smiley day~ (And it was 3 months ago already :( ) Aigoo, what can I do? T_T I think the wheel is really rotating now... seems like my eyes shrunk while my brother's got bigger -.- Karma? What did I do? :(



And my humongous cheeks and its excess fats T_T Also, time to lose some fats away.... even when I gained weight back in 2009, it only shows on my face but now is like everywhere, just spam only OTL I miss my flatter tummy and sharper face... now even my arms also flabby already -.- I need to do something before I go haywire. Ok firstly, fast food ban but I shall still eat good food... maybe just go for jogs more often instead of once a quarter year :/

Good luck to me. May this determination and urge to shed some fats stays for a very long timeeeeeeeee b^^d

***

Aish, feeling so grumpy right now even though I am wearing a new top and shoes! I don't know how to be happy...... (actually an album each from DB5K will do, lol) sneezed till my nose lose its shape and almost dropped off + losing my voice >:( why am I like this? :( I want to cheer for my boys this Saturday. Aigoo, kibummie ah~ T_T

And the feeling is so weird. Both JYJ and HoMin coming back in the same month... it feels as if they are still together :( but we all know that it can't be... at least not in the next 5 years. DB5K have this special aura that makes people feel like we know them for a very long time though it isn't true and they probably don't even know of our existence, lol. Let's all keep our faith till the very end of time ^^

I wanna get both Tone and In Heaven! >:(

Reason #17467634 why DBSK should be 5: save my money!

Yayyyyyy, Crazy Stupid Love tonight ^^ I am expecting a lot from it!

take a flee

Sorry but I ain't called a procrastinator for no reasons :3 lazy to blog already! hehee, just did some miscellaneous tasks~ severe lack of sleep @_@ I hope time flies tomorrow! I can't wait to catch Crazy Stupid Love with Jessie, my dong saeng! Let's pray hard that we both won't be late tomorrow ^^ throat and nose need to be well soon. I need my voice on Saturday U_U Oh, the awkward moment when I recalled I actually did lost my voice before the last concert I attended... the one in BKK -.- chui.................... people lose their voices after concerts but I lost it even before I went -.- I love Wednesdays because it means mid-week and Friday & weekends will roll in next ^^ Hmmmmm..... will we be awkward on Friday? O.O I don't want to be home late cause I need ample rest for SWSG \m/

Kinda disappointed that RITS actually have only 200 official tees -_-" what's the point of a pre-order then? -.-" Urgh, so disappointing >:(

K, as usual... I rant a lil too much. Sowwie :( Nights :(

please don't go now, please don't fade away.

Got inspired when I was at work today........ cause I was bored, hehe. Preview of my loots! Coming to think of it, I didn't get much in H&M but the pair of oxford is expensive enough (to me) to be 1/3 of the bill :( Myly black color is $20 more expensive than brown >:( what is this?! hahahaha k la............. black's material better :D /self-console

Btw, this isn't a leopard print dress ^^ I am almost over leopard prints already. Even the auntie selling char siew rice @ Redhill Hawker is wearing it -.-

I can't stand how people complains about the queue over at H&M. Dudes, you aren't even in the queue -.- cause if you are, you will know that despite the queue being really long, it took less than 10 minutes for you to get in! It is the queue for fitting room that strains... I think? I can't remember how long we queued. BUT oh god, do I have to rave about how spacious the fitting rooms are? I totally love it! I can spend my whole day in it! They have everything! Cheap accessories, shoes, flats, heels, tops, bottoms, dresses, shorts, bags, lingerie.... everything that I need (and don't)! I need money~~~ lots of money! For my birthday this year, I just want H&;M gift cards :D OHMY.... imagine shopping till I drop on my knees OTL

hehehe, stay tune. Let's hope I will have the adrenaline to blog tomorrow. Oh, thanks to lele, I found my lost pictures... hopefully they are still there tomorrow! U_U I am so upset now, I seriously think Khuntoria is ending ;(

AND FINALLY, JYJ'S "IN HEAVEN" TEASER IS OUT!!! SO PROUD OF MY BOYS~

JYJ "IN HEAVEN" 1min Teaser from C-JeS on Vimeo.

Xiah finally gets a girl!!! hahaha, back then in Haptic CF with SNSD, he was the only one without a girl ^^ Jihyo unnie so pretty~~~

Also, I must thank Kyu for tweeting this picture!!! wae my Shimgod so perfect? ^^

Oh, I had 3 hearty meals today instead of just a hearty breakfast -.- But who don't love good breakfasts?
Good night!

WHATTTTTTTTTTTT. BLOGGER TROLLING ME OVER AGAIN U_U
I FINALLY UPLOADED TONS OF PHOTOS AND THEN WHEN I CAME BACK TO EDIT AFTER AWHILE... 1/4 OF THE PHOTOS I UPLOADED PREVIOUSLY ARE GONE! :( :( :( :(

WAE YOU LIKE THAT TO ME?
I PROCRASTINATED SO LONG AND FINALLY GOT THE ADRENALINE TO BLOG... :'( URGH, NOT GONNA TRY AGAIN FOR NOW. SO UPSET~ :(

Promise promise promise I will do up a decent post soon... I've been lagging so far behind that I can't remember how much I've owe and er, where to start :3 Ahhhhh, I am hurting right now. My mouth, actually! I went to tighten my braces today and my dentist said I need to start wearing rubber bands while I sleep or have nothing better to do for 12 hrs/day! :O But... I don't sleep 12 hours hahaha.

Bought the Holika Holika's Face 2 Change Liquid Roller BB as recommended on oiseau88's channel ^^ I am a sucker for recommendations \m/ Got convinced to get the primer too -.- cause it just... got a nice fragrant... :( I love makeup that smells good ^^ ahhhh, the salesgirl was really nice! She saw me touching Yonghwa so she gave me extra file holder of him! LOL, bought 2 items only but so many free gifts ^^ I hope the BB cream works well for me!

OH BTW! I got into SRC! \^^/ so lucky!!! totally unexpected O_O I thought I did quite badly for the interview eh... :/ Got into projects but the caller didn't tell me which event I am in but still, it is a good news! ^^

I just hope that you are there for all the time I will love you.

Feel like shit, look like shit, dress like shit. I am a piece of shit for now... and I don't know till when :( WAE I GOT EYE INFECTION NOW?!?! THIS IS THE FKING MOST HAPPENING WEEK!!! I am starting to dread the arrival of Thursday already :( MY HAIR, MY FRINGE, MY FACE AND THE MOST IMPORTANT THING OF ALL - MY EYES, WAE YOU ALL TREAT ME LIKE THAT?! >:( I SO UGLY NOW :( :( :( :( :( :( so stressed I feel like eating but I will regret after that, I just know it -.-

I want to get this fringe again but I don't know how :( Wae my forehead not nice enough? I want to try having long fringe but my determination fading away..........................

Must make a mental note to take MC on Friday though :3
So tired, so void..................................................................... and it doesn't feels good :(

played it to the beat.

hehehe, finally received the Cath Kidston iPhone cover I ordered from Gmarket! Actually the 3rd level of Bugis Street is selling them now at $10 -.- I bought it for $9.90 at Gmarket and waited for a week -.- I'd rather pay that 10 cents! Ah, so unlike me to have orange... but I thought I ordered yellow! hahaha until I was so ready to email the seller and complain about the wrong delivery... I realised the page actually have 2 photos and the top photo... somehow the lighting made it look like yellow :( :( :( I want a yellow cover! Hmm, thinking of checking out the rilakkuma one from my cart soon but it isn't a need :(

 I am going the gag way :O

Ah, my awesome char siew rice from Redhill Hawker today!!!

I am looking forward to lunch tomorrow! So cute, pre-ordered on yesterday! hahaha, must preorder 2 days before O_O check out qiji.com.sg ! hahaa, Dylan was so surprised that I've never heard of qiji before O_O heh, I ordered Nasi Lemak Set 6! It consists of ikan bilis, egg, chicken wing and tempura fish~ I was just searching for one set that do not have otah and this is the only one -.-

Please be good, please don't be soggy...

SO... took a quarter-day leave today so that I can attend the SRC interview! hehehe, almost late but clever me was in luck! (and a lil bit of wit) Coincidentally, Cynthia, Carissa and Wilson's interview got delayed so we actually went in together! Scary max!!! 12 ppl to be interviewed together O_O aish, I think I screwed it? I don't know what I was blabbering and the rest so competitive! slb~

 shagged day~ forgot to snap a pic w Carissa and Wilson before they left!

Met my pig for the ladies' night ♥ I got my 石锅! hahaha. The uncle at woori nara so nice but I can't let myself down anymore. Joo mak ftw! Hmm, shall upload the pics together with next wed's ^^

Ah, downloaded this old photo effect app thing on iPhone and I like us like this! hahahaaa, really look like a decade ago! I like this photo cause it is the only photo with the background :( wae we only took one?! D:

I can't wait for the week ahead! ♥

Do me a favor?

Please help me decide which dress to wear to Ziyi's 21st? Gonna be a grand thing and the theme is Hollywood Glamour... I know #2 and #4 just ching chong, lol. For CNY :( Help me decide! So far #1, #3 and #7 got good responses but I can't decide... :(

#1

#1 is bodycon dress.

#2

#2 is... I know, shapeless.

#3

#3 is flowy~

#4

#4 is flare! Urgh, got cheated!

#5

#6

#6 got an ugly zip behind.

#7

ahhhh, please help me decide :( I am too fickle for my own good :(
Don't try to sabo me ♥ Comments are welcomed but don't be too mean!

Tell me!

Outflow > Inflow; forever like that :(
Just did the sums up for SWSG and I realised we spent quite an amount... it varies from people but still... :( Just hope Kibum can stay at my side most of the time and I can catch one of the balls he planted with his kiss that he throws at the end of concert \^^/ Oh, and can JongKey go crazy for Ready or Not at my side too? And can Taemaknae, Onew, Jong, Minho all spit water at each other in front of me? Make my money worthwhile please OTL I hope Taemin adjusts his bra in front of me too, lolololol. This maknae is getting uncontrollable.

Oh wait, did I just confused myself w Blogger and Tumblr? -.-
I love the plans of these 2 weeks! Dear hair, skin and body, please be nice to me~ I need to implement fast food ban already, had it for consecutively 3 days OTL Noona is guilty. Oh wait, confused again. hahaha sorry that I sound a lil high... sleep-deprived ^^

My heart aches so badly last night :(
I tried to watch other videos to neutralise the effect but it hurts so much. Wae like that? :( I shouldn't have look at that in the first place :(

No matter what happens, I gonna keep my faith till the very end. I cannot and do not want to picture any of the 5 might have already stop keeping the faith. Wherever you guys wander, remember to come home to this red ocean afterall. Cassies are waiting, for the glorious reunion.

Too lazy to do anything. Why is the weekend so short? It is Monday tomorrow again ;_____; SRC interview on Friday but I can't make it cause of work :( They seems to forget about people who took bridging course :( aish, because of work.. I can't turn up for some FOD outings too. Aish, I am a slave of money >:(

once in awhile.

Life's a whizz. FOC was awesome! Though it was tiring and I have yet to clear my sleep debt but... it is all worth it :) hopefully the hype and the friendship will last! I am already looking forward to the OG outing! What food should I bring? :O But turning out for OG outing will means giving MBS gathering a miss... aish, decisions.

Ytd was a quality time spent with han though I was complaining how dark I am half the time :( the pictures turned out sucky... and Porn's really isn't fantastic :/ Update tomorrow! Using my bro's desktop now cause my laptop refused to connect the wifi U_U Thanks QAD for the loots from BKK! ♥

Hmm... lots of updates to do OTL
1. FOC
2. MBS
3. Phuket + BKK grad trip
4. Taiwan grad trip

OTL the last 2 is forever on the list :( my dear lazygirl91 just uploaded our MBS pictures we took a decade ago... or was it half a decade? hahaha, we count even faster than animal lifeline... anwz, I am embarrassed of most of my selcas cause I was trying to get a profile picture at that time (what's wrong with me :( ) Aish, wae I got no abs? Cause I lazy and I eat a lot.

Kinda miss Pera already O_O It's weird how we miss people huh.
I miss TA29 after we returned from the thailand trip... miss having breakfast with them every morning and seeing them almost 20 hours a day for a week....♥ Then I miss my darlings after the taiwan trip... how we only sleep a couple of hours a day in order to fully utilise the time we have there and yet, we were unbeatable ♥ I've always been missing people... like some days, I just randomly thought of them and remember the times I've had with them and miss them. It's like I wish we never have to be apart... which is impossible.

I am happy for my friends who are basking in bliss right now and at the same time, my heart hurts for my friends who are having a rough time... :( It is only normal to feel connected to close friends' emotions right? :( I don't know if I should be happy that I am such a person.... 

I don't want to spend my life like this but I can't fight for what I am uncertain of.
Good night, gonna watch Protect the Boss now! Pretty funny ^^

From Tumblr:
You say that you love rain but you open your umbrella when it rains.
You say that you love the sun but you find a shadow spot when it shines.
You say that you love the wind but you close your windows when it blows.
This is why I am afraid, you said that you love me too.

Brilliant.

Still, I look to find a reason to believe.

This week...

Monday: Wild Honey + Horrible bosses

I was in a good mood that day. Probably cause the next day is National Day and there's no work ^^ and also, gonna meet lpz in the evening.

 Compulsory morning walks.

aish.

chubs.

Caught the shuttle bus... but was so early so I walked around in f21 and ended up being late -.- sorry lpz D:

Wild Honey for dinz before we caught Horrible Bosses!

I don't know how to use the pepper grinder :(

$_$

Lpz's

My english brunch for dinz.

The aftermath.

Hi preggie.

 Her toothache which she tries v hard to hold the pain :O

 So good at making retarded faces.

 Idk how that top should be worn too!

 /foreverawkward

yay us!

Rushed to get some froyo from Red Mango so that we can sneak it in for the movie ^^ I think it's quite a nice movie, kept laughing all the way, yay~ \m/

 Lepak a lil at OC aft the movie before we made our way back home.

 Sobbing cause the escalator stopped working :(

 Hello kitty!

Tuesday was a stay-home day on our nation's birthday ^^ I am getting so lazy to step out of my house now. All I need is just my laptop AND the wifi and my life is good -.- hahaha, and food though. Honestly, I am thinking if I should go to my Grandma's house later on or stay at home and watch FO1! But I haven't see my grandma for quite some time... :(

Wednesday: A random day. 
Love the overpriced flats from BKK but wae it seems to be loose now? :(

what kept me going @ work ^^ I got it from Redhill market! teehee, gonna stock up more the week after~

 The day that I really BTH my hair and so I went to cut it after work :3

So long and shapeless and dry :( and I have a bad feeling about the fringe I am growing but... le sigh. At most cut again when confirmed? I can't give up now! 

After much consideration, decided to give the OG21's club outing a miss :( cause I really dread entering coma at work :( after lunch effect is already potent enough. Ah, I decided the gift for my SP and got it on that day too~ before I went for a hair cut $___$

Thursday: Nerdy day
I've got a slight eye infection on my right eye :( ahhh, had to go to work in specs :(

 Loving this ^^ I need to make a trip to JB soon~

And I finally wore the tunic dress I got in BKK! I guess I won't be able to wear this for school or else I will be sweating like mad ;____;

Friday: Save on food to spend on somewhere above the eyes

Love the top ^^

Met yeobo after work for brow threading but aish, got convinced to pay for intangible stuff again :( I.e package :( So broke so we only had kfc for dinz, poor us :( We only had snackers and there was a skinny but looking gorgeous girl eating the savers meal. Life is unfair~ hahaha. Aish, then we went into Sephora and saw the Naked palette!!! *O* Like just restocked on that day and and and was selling fast... O.O tried on... but decided that we should go the mini f21 over at Wisma (not the orchard xchange one so that we limit our vulnerability) first to decide if we should get the palette... and also weigh the options, lol. 

the one on top!

I guess this kinda moved us a lil towards wanting it? Limited shitz.

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we got it in the end -.-

forever fickle and chui at making decisions us~ ;___;
I swear I am going to implement the $3/meal thing again!!! NO DRINKS FOR LUNCH. but I am taking leave for 3 days, hehehe  And we are really stupidgirls91, paid separately and made ourselves even further away from the $40 voucher!!! U_U

 Pudding camera scared me for a lil while :(

 so twit, not I decorate one ^^

 spam only.

Went home early to reflect upon ourselves and also start to watch tutorials... but I didn't :/

Look what arrived!

 hehee, using the middle one in the first row.

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Dilemma. This...

or this

or... this chingchong dress that doesn't look like the pic! :( so flare... D: but the top part and the back is nice!

Aish.

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 We better use it, we better do. OTL

I need to watch 1 tutorial everyday so that it won't be yet another thing I keep for my descendants, hahaha.

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^ went Grandma's house in the end! Had dinz @ vivo... and finally wore the top I bought on impulse/out-of-my-mind mode in BKK... -.- note to self: keep calm next time.

 In the fitting room w mumzie! She bought a dress for me ;____; so touched. komawo mum ♥

Watched Family Outing 1 @ Grandma's while Marvin and Felicia joined me at some point of time ^^

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The weekend is coming to an end! Heh, bought Groupon for woori nara w darling next week ^^ fyeah soy garlic chicken!!! \m/ I am kinda looking forward to OG21's movie date for FD5! ^^ ah, foc in less than 2 days' time! SWSG in 27 days. Please be good alright? ♥ Have been spending a lot lately, need to reflect upon myself and do something about it. I am already 20 this year, I can't live like this anymore!